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Thursday, March 31, 2011

333–24 Years Ago…

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Twenty-four years ago at this exact time my life changed forever. I became a mom and nothing about my life has been the same ever since.  I see things differently.  I think things differently. I feel things differently.

I started a journal (and I’m ashamed to admit I did a horrible job of keeping up with it) when I found out I was pregnant with Kale.  (I started another one for Tyler when I realized we were pregnant again.)

Kale's first birthday

Here are a few things from some early entries…

[On being pregnant with him]  I loved you from the moment I suspected you were there. I fed you, talked to you, patted you, rubbed you, and treated you as if you were already born.  I don’t think there was one unhappy moment of pregnancy.

[On knowing he was a boy – I never had an ultrasound]  I knew all along you were a boy!  I had your room painted blue 5 months into my pregnancy.

[On how big he was – 9 lbs. 8 oz. at birth]  You are over 2 months old now, wearing 12 month outfits, and I can’t imagine how we ever made it without you. You are the love of our lives… all 16 pounds of you!

[On how special our relationship is] I feel so connected to you. We are very close. I hope that never changes.  My love for you grows with every breath you take. You are such a good boy and good friend.

I am still amazed at how the character traits and personality of both of my boys has remained the same from infancy until now.  The words I used to describe Kale as a baby and young boy are still true about him today…sweet, sensitive, caring, loving, funny, trustworthy, very intelligent, a leader, independent, respectful, head strong, responsible to name a few. 

I used to think about how the years ahead of me would bring change and my little boys, who were so dependent on me, wouldn’t need me any more.  I  worried that would mean loneliness and emptiness for me.  I never, in my wildest dreams, imagined that as that happened our relationships would change into something even better.  I am blessed to be Kale’s mom and even more blessed that we are the best of friends.

On his 8th birthday, I finished my entry with these words… they are still true today:

You are certainly a wonderful, special and loving young man! And I am the luckiest Mom on earth!!

Happy Birthday, Kale David!! We love you!

7 comments:

Kelley said...

That is so precious! I love that you kept a journal. I am keeping one too on both girls. I don't write in them enough. Happy Birthday to your first born. Birthdays are special for the kids, but also the Moms. We are the keepers of all the details of their lives. It is a special role to have.

The Garners said...

I love this! Happy Birthday to your sweet boy.

Jenn said...

That is wonderful that you did that journal! Such precious memories.

Happy Birthday to Kale!

The Branches said...

Awe! This was such a sweet post!!! <3 Becky

StitchinByTheLake said...

Loved your words on children - these are true for all of us! blessings, marlene

Kimberley said...

oh so sweet! what a great momma you are!!! i hope my boys and i have great relationship when they're adults as you and your boys :)

His Doorkeeper said...

Happy Birthday Kale! We still like to think of you as a sweet little boy!! That 's the way old people are! Har!!!