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Friday, June 11, 2010

040 – It’s A Tough Decision

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It’s getting really tough knowing that Holly is going to have to be put down soon.  I’ve been an emotional wreck today thinking about actually having it done.  She’s hiding in a corner a lot lately…or she stays on her “perch” under Kale’s piano.  When we walk in her vicinity, she gives off a little warning signal letting us know she’s there – like she thinks we’ll step on her or something.  She has little remaining muscle in her back legs so just using the litter box is getting really tough for her. 

But, then there’s times when I come in the door and she moves toward me… long enough to acknowledge me and look me in the eyes before she relocates to rest somewhere else.  Those are the times I think that MAYBE she doesn’t feel as bad as I think she feels and I get all conflicted.  All I know is I don’t want her to be suffering.

My poor, poor kitty…

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8 comments:

Kyla said...

Oh my goodness, I couldn't imagine!! I'm sorry you have such a HARD decision :(

Kayla said...

poor holly kitty. i sure wish there was a way for them to tell us what's wrong with them!! :(

p.s. i love that you linked Kale! haha! i think he was getting a little sad :(

Kelley said...

I am so sorry. This has to be a horrible decision. Does the vet think she will get better?

Becky said...

I'm praying for God to give you a sign.

His Doorkeeper said...

You know ,Jacquie, it is hard for people who have a nurturing spirit like you have to even entertain the thought of putting down ailing pets. We feel just like we do about our children...always taking care of their every need, physical or emotional. Pets are like an "extended child" of ours. It is a terrible decision.

I will pray as you come to a decision but know this: You have taken good care of your kitty all these years and she knows you love her!!

Chris said...

I am so sorry! We are facing same ordeal. Our Corgi (oldest one), he barely can get around! So hard, and I am so sorry you have to go thru this!

Kelley said...

My Dad's treatment went very well. He will go one day a week for a 3 hour treatment. He will do this 3 weeks in a row and then be off a week. They will check his PSA too make sure it is going down. They will continue chemo if the levels don't go down. YOu wouldn't believe it. He hasn't been sick at all. He said that he feels terrific. They found cancer in his back and pelvic bones. He said that his back hasn't hurt at all since the treatment. He is as tough as a boot though.

Thanks for checking on him.

Cindi Sarthou said...

I pray you will be at peace when you do finally make your decision. We've had to put down many pets. Don't let the animal suffer if there is any possibility at all. Is there any pain in areas when you touch her? It feels like losing a child and there is always a mourning period. It is with great difficulty that we have to make these decisions. Our dog Holly was one of our greatest pets!Pray.